Doubt

It's May 31st, 2013.  I am scared, I stand naked, and I am full of doubt.  I am ready to take the zero on this whole Jacob's Well and Jesus thing and I haven't even made it to the first weekend.  I know He is talking to me but I still don't get it.  It seems everyone is against me.  I can't even talk to anyone without them being offended.  I'm at work at the store in Hattiesburg, walking distance from the old haunts.  I am standing behind a clothes rack crying.  A woman I had never before seen in my life comes up to me and gives me a hug.  And then she says, "Julie, you are in the right place.  I know this isn't easy, but you need to press through.  This is for you.  God can do this for you.  I will keep you lifted up in prayer."  She starts to cry.  And then she walks away and out of the store.  I have never met this woman before in my life, yet she spoke my name and gave me a Word directly from the heavens. 

Susan said the day before that "Fear tolerated is faith contaminated."  I need to partner with people who will protect my nakedness.  In all honesty, I don't want to partner with anyone....sigh.

Romans 4:20-21 - Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what He had promised. 

Doubt is something that is made up by the enemy (Satan) to take hold of my mind and keep me in confusion and unbelief.  He brings storms into my life to intimidate me.  What a liar!

James 1:5-7 - If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.  But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.  That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.

What???  So all I have to do is believe?  That's it?

Lord, I want to be led by the heart, and not by my head.  Please give me a believing heart.  I desire to put all my trust in You and You alone.  I have sought security from people my whole life and I desperately want to feel secure in You.  Show me the way, Father, through your Word and through my circumstances and through other people that are walking out their salvation with You.